This is a lie:

If I am just a little more organized, I will not be anxious anymore.

So is this:

I don't need to pray, I just need to make a to-do list.

Lord, let me remember that you are the Sovereign One. The One that controls my day and the outcome of all the details within it. May I look to you for peace and not to my own efforts.

remembering this today.

Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not your life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? Therefore do not be anxious, saying 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all.

But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.

Matthew 6:25-32 (emphasis mine)

just a simple reminder of God's provision..

I didn't work at all this week because the family I babysit for is on vacation. I was a little worried because I had a few unexpected expenses, and my checking account was getting pretty low. I get paid weekly, so I was going to have to go another week without a paycheck.

I just checked my account online, worried that I would see single digits (at best!)... and saw that my tax refund had been deposited yesterday--the day I would have been paid--in an amount significantly higher than my paycheck is normally. :)

If (read: when) I doubt God's ability and desire to provide for me again... remind me that He is there even in the mundane, in the instances that we forget to pray about because we think it's "no big deal".

What a wonderful gracious God we have!

some tuesday grace

This afternoon I was driving and I realized that my mind was racing with wedding planning thoughts, I was anxious and didn't even realize it. So I stopped to pray. God was so gracious in that moment to meet me with some truth.

A few days ago I was chatting with a friend who encouraged me by telling me that something that she tried to remember while she was planning her wedding was that God even knew what the font on her invitations was going to be, He knew the details. When she first told me, it was a good reminder--so comforting to hear. And while I was praying today, the Lord brought that back to mind. He has already planned my wedding. He knows where it will be, who will come, what flowers we'll go with, etc. And it will all be to accomplish His purposes. It's not my job to choose the one option that is going to make the gospel apparent or not. He's already done it.

As hard as it is for me to believe, God is sovereign even in the tiny details of wedding planning. And I just need to seek Him in it, and everything will fall into place. Somehow, I'm planning a wedding that has already been planned. And praise God for that!